My babies are moving out soon.
Last year, in October, Hannah moved out, making our nest empty and I was ssstttrrruuugggggggggggllllliiiinnnggg for a minute.
Then just as I was deciding this was an okay gig and I began to enjoy my clean home, inviting friends over for lunch, having dinner parties, being alone, not having to be concerned about how much food was in the house and all of that gloriousness, Aaron told me that he needed to move in with us for a bit to save some money to get a car. Then Caleb asked if he could take the other bedroom… the one that my Honey had just put my new desk in so that I could have my own office…
I’m a mama, through and through, so, of course, they moved in with us.
Our house has SO much stuff in it now, I don’t really do any cleaning unless it’s a health hazard – like a very serious hazard, because no space. Any. Where.
I know I will be a little emotional mess on the day they take their things to their new place. I’ll miss them. All things considered, we’ve gotten along really well and when we don’t, we communicate like grown ups, which has been sublime. I truly like our kids. They are good people, funny, loving, honest, generous, kind, and interesting. I’d rather spend time with them and their dad than pretty much anyone else in the whole entire anywhere.
I’m SO looking forward to having my nest empty, again.
I’m incredibly thankful that God worked things out so that I could have this last little bit mothering my babies in my home in a healthier way than I was capable of mothering them when we all were younger. I feel like I got to know my aloof Tita in a way that I haven’t since he moved out of our home years ago amidst turmoil and mutual resentment. I was blessed to have conversations with my sweet Enu that have healed us and helped us see each other more truly.
It’s good. It’s kinda like we got a second chance to do this leaving the nest thing the right way. I know that everyone isn’t as fortunate and while I had accepted that things just happen that way when your kids move out most of the time, I am humbled that God allowed us to do this together with respect, love and healthy boundaries.
I’m also thrilled that in a month I’ll be having friends over for coffee and dinner parties, that I’ll have my house to myself and get to spend time writing in my office, and especially that my home will be much less cluttered and clean! I sure won’t mind being able to hang with my Honey – just my Honey!
I’ll have to adjust again, so that means I’ll be sad and feel a tiny bit lost for a minute. I’ll feel lonely when the house is quiet for too many days. But, this time I know I’m going to be okay. I’m more than a mama and I’m ready to get to know myself, to discover who I am now.
My nest is almost empty.
My life is full.
My heart is overflowing.